Me and Sir Jonathan’s TRUE supernatural love story is now on Wattpad!

I quickly tossed the bags in a bin by the counter as Chris did the same, and then turned to leave.

“Wait,” he said.

I halted, my heart beginning to pound, and then slowly faced him. He stepped forward, his deep, brown eyes rapt on me. And without any more warning, he took my face in his hands and pressed his supple lips against mine. My muscles tensed and I froze. Is this really happening right now? I closed my eyes, even though doing so felt like a crime. His kiss held much of the same weakening effect it had on me last time, but anxiety combated some of it. The fear of getting hurt again gripped me just as much as his kiss did.

After a very long moment he released me. “I really like you, Natasha…a lot.”

I blinked at him, my tongue still frozen. Thoughts fumbled around my mind in a drunken stupor despite having not drank. Did he just say-but how-I thought he-Heat filled my cheeks as I smiled. Maybe now isn’t the time to process Chris’s antics. He returned the gesture. But surprisingly, it wasn’t that pleased/amused smile. It was…different. It looked tender, genuine…


“You scared me,” I said.

“I’m sorry.” Dace slid his hands onto my hips and kissed me.

I caressed the back of his head, my heartbeat slowing as I pressed my body closer to his. His warm torso felt like stone. I pulled back and peered into his eyes.

“There’s something so mystical about you.” Dace stared with a passion that seared into the depths of me.

“Mystical? How so?”

“Just the way you move or don’t move. There’s a charm about you that I’ve never seen before.”
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The Phantom Lover, the Dark Angel, and the Dream Prince.

My name is Natasha, and this is my true, supernatural love story.

The way me and Jonathan came together is nothing short of supernatural. It sounds like a YA fiction novel so I decided why not write it in the style of one? It’s written in first-person point of view, and you’re experiencing my relationships as I experienced them. You get to be in my teenage head, and as if watching a Netflix show unfold, you’ll go on a journey from my first love at seventeen-years-old to meeting my true love at nineteen. But before you get to enjoy my happy ending, strap on your seatbelt, because I take you through the rollercoaster I experienced in the two relationships leading up to my last and present one.

Are you ready?

Start reading my ongoing, true, supernatural love story absolutely free on Wattpad now. 

The Lie Of “Loving Someone Vs Being In Love With Him/Her”

What does pretty much every romance movie portray about love:

1.) There has to be a strong physical attraction.

2.) You won’t be able to get the person off your mind (in other words, you’ll obsess over him/her).

3.) You won’t be able to keep your hands off the person.

4.) You’ll have great premarital sex.

This is what they call, “being in love.” And O, how many times I’ve bought this lie with ex-boyfriends and exchanged the powerful four-letter word. I’m sure you have too. If you haven’t yet, praise God, you’re extremely fortunate.

Now with this whole “being in love” nonsense, there comes another lie: love leaves.

Ever hear someone say, “I love you, but I’m just not in love with you anymore.” In other words, I don’t obsess over you anymore and don’t feel all those intense lustful feelings I once did for you.

First of all, that crazy intense passionate feeling we once felt for a person was not love. This is how the Apostle Paul defined it:

“But I say to the unmarried and to the widows: It is good for them if they remain even as I am; but if they cannot exercise self-control, let them marry. For it is better to marry than to burn [with passion]. (I Corinthians 7:8, 9)

Have you ever burned with lust? I have. Felt it all over my stomach and chest, it was consuming. Also felt it all over my body on my wedding night. What was I craving in that moment? To be touched.

Love isn’t unrestrained affection. That consuming fiery sensation is called lust, and of course it goes away, because when you get what you’ve desired, you’re satisfied for a while and then it gets old. Then you “fall in love” with someone else.

How about we get to what real love is?

1.) First off, it’s a choice.

Love isn’t some arbitrary mystical force that possesses you for a while and then vanishes once things get rough.

Love is God. God is love. Once we embrace Christ, who chooses us, He never leaves us or forsakes us. To say you’re in love with someone because you greatly lust after them is to call God a selfish pervert. (I’m not saying desire is wrong by the way. When in the right context, desire is beautiful and holy, i.e. when it is pure and then acted upon in marriage).

2.) Love isn’t earned, it’s given.

“Wow you’re really hot and when we hang out you make me feel super happy so I’m going to tell you I love you and seduce you so we can have sex and really show each other how much we love one another.”

Translation: “I get stuff from you that I like, and I want more of that stuff, so I’m going to suck you dry until I don’t ‘feel’ like I ‘love you’ anymore.”

Real love sounds like this:

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. (I Corinthians 13:4-8)

Love suffers long. That means if that brother loves you, he keeps his pants zipped and his hands off your secret areas even if it pains him to, honoring you because he cherishes you and knows you are a daughter of God who does not yet belong to him. He does not seek his own selfish gain i.e an orgasm, but he seeks what’s best for God and you, putting his own desires at bay until the proper time: marriage.

The Bible teaches in 1 Thessalonians 4:3-8:

For this is God’s will, your sanctification: that you abstain from sexual immorality, so that each of you knows how to control his own body in sanctification and honor, not with lustful desires, like the Gentiles who don’t know God. This means one must not transgress against and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is an avenger of all these offenses, as we also previously told and warned you. For God has not called us to impurity but to sanctification. Therefore, the person who rejects this does not reject man, but God, who also gives you His Holy Spirit.

So while girls you know are getting used by their boyfriends and calling it love are telling you about how great their sex-life is, you can tell them what real love looks like and hopefully be able to show them when God puts you in the path of one of his godly princes, and that son of God cherishes you and respects you, showing you love by refraining from using your body and instead gets to know and protect your heart until God confirms to you both that you are to be married and on that night, he enjoys what he’s been lovingly waiting for.

Princess prayer: Heavenly Father, in the name of my King, Jesus, I ask that You help me tear down every lie about love that I have believed. I pray You enable me to keep my mind on You and wait for the man you have for me. Amen.

New Facebook Group

Hey ladies! So last year I tried creating a forum, but it turned out to be a rather poor site. I never got email notifications of posts, there’s no app for it, and other such inconveniences. So I remembered today that Facebook groups are great for staying in touch, posting prayer requests and asking for advice on relationships (both with God and man).

I know several of you are friends with me on Facebook, and I’ve messaged back and forth with some of you, but I’d like to stay more connected. I pray for you all every day, and I consider you precious disciples. However, I’d like to build an online community, a safe-place where you sisters can go to receive prayer back-up, guidance, accountability and encouragement.

So, here’s the link:

 

https://www.facebook.com/groups/betterthanedward/

 

I’m excited to get to know my sisters better!

 

 

much love,

 

Natasha

Shut Up And Let Us Kill And Do Whatever Else We Want

If the majority wants the right to murder their helpless children in their womb we should let them because well, they’re the majority, right? If the majority decides they don’t want to buy property anymore, but take homes they like by force, we should let them because they’re the majority, right? If the majority wants to legalize rape, we should legalize rape because the supposed majority wants it, right? Otherwise, we are forcing our moralism on them. Oh, but actually, if we do legalize what they want, they are forcing their lack of moralism on us.

Should we accept their violence, to ours and many people’s destruction? Or should we stand against sin and evil for the sake of the people, and by prayer and civil action, not permit such violence to be enacted on the basis of preserving life?

Chaos happens when evil laws are passed and God’s law is shunned. And this nation and our president, and many American politicians, to our shame and embarrassment, are doing this very thing: passing evil laws and trying to silence those who oppose them.

And we think God does not see? We should be terrified of His righteous judgement on a land that so spitefully rejects and fights against His laws and in pride justifies its treachery and lawlessness with meaningless ideologies of relativism and evolution. Why? Because we want to do what we want without fear of judgement. Deep down we know we are wrong but we silence our consciences by choosing to deceive ourselves with the teachings we like, the ones that don’t condemn our sins, but applaud them, until finally we believe them and have completely crucified our consciences.

Now, we think we are free, but really, we are a slave to the sin we have allowed to rule us, instead of letting the truth and reality of who Jesus Christ is to free us from the power of our evil desires that we may live righteously and truly love others, not just accept and tolerate them.

I love God and the homosexual so I speak against their destructive lifestyle. Not because I’m on a high-horse of self-righteousness but because I know God is love, yet He is also just, and cannot go back on His Word. If He condemns an act that can be forgivable, such as homosexuality, theft, lying, lust, adultery, premarital sex, and even murder, I would be hateful to just shut my mouth and let those indulging in such sins stroll blindly into hell. Because I would rather speak the truth in love, though it may hurt their pride or cause a brief pain when they realize they must separate themselves from that sin, than let them be deceived, or cheer them onto the path of destruction.

God loves us so He tells us the truth, plain and clear. He doesn’t blur the lines and confuse us with gray areas. He labels sin that we might repent of it and receive eternal life with Him. He gave His only perfect Son to die a gruesome death—the death we all deserved—because of our sins. Jesus, the Son of God, defeated sin and death by living a perfect sinless life and then rising from the grave the third day. And He promises that those who trust in Him and give their hearts to Him can likewise conquer sin and death. God “kills your party” to protect your body and soul that you may be able to join Him at His celebration in eternal paradise, where joy is not a fleeting drug or orgasm, but is being in the midst of love Himself for all eternity where He wipes away every tear, and where no more pain or evil exists. A place of true peace, the kind we hope for on this earth but will never have until Christ returns and once for all destroys satan and those who follow him, and Jesus who is Love and Truth rules over and cares for every soul who has chosen to be His and to follow Him.

You may not have tomorrow, so why not choose Life today. Jesus said: “I am the way, the truth, and the life, and no one gets to the Father except by Me.”

I pray your eyes are opened to what matters, that you set your mind on heaven, not earth, on life, not death. Jesus is the Best Person that has ever happened to me, and He offers Himself to anyone who is willing. You can ask Him yourself. You don’t need to go to a church building, or a pastor, to encounter Jesus. He is the only Mediator between God and man, and you can go directly to Him to have your sins forgiven, your slate made clean, and your heart transformed by the indwelling of His most powerful Holy Spirit. Please choose life today!